Good Times

I've been feeling sick or out of place for a while and I don't know what's going on. I feel hopeless and desperate for some answers. I feel empty inside because I don't know what's going on and that makes me feel even worse. On top of it all I feel alone when I'm not really alone - that's the worst feeling to have. 

I've been to the emergency room - they told me all the tests were fine and sent me home. I didn't get better, so I just went on with everything as normal if you count sleeping more than usuall as normal - and still feel like you've been awake twenty-four-seven.

I went to the doctor again yesterday and she told me I had a virus, and all the other tests she took I don't really know anything about really. I just know that she'll call me if something is wrong and that she won't contact me if everything is fine. Everything is not fine just because some tests says nothing is wrong - I know something is wrong. I've been feeling out of breath, sleepy, tired, empty for over a month now and I'm sick and tired of it. I've come to a point now where everything just fly by and I'm stuck at the same place. The only place I stand to be at is my bed. I've spent the last 29 hours in my bed, why? Well, I don't have any strenght or willpower to do anything else. My back hurts and my hips, and that pain explodes into my legs so it feels like my knees and thighs is having cramps every now and then.  

I hate being away from my job, because I love being there. I love my job and I love my co-workers. I also feel guilty for bein sick since I've just started a few months ago - I shouldn't be sick at this point. 

This is me signing in whining about my stupid life at the moment.

Hope everything is fine with everyone of you out there!

With Love 

I was reading a little bit online tonight and found some very intersting quotes! Here!

A lot of them are very familiar to me^^

 when you catch yourself thinking you wish you could say a smiley
  - Female Nerd

when your family e-mails you because that's the only way to get in touch with you
  - Female Nerd

when you wake up at night for some reason and think : "Great! I've got more time to get connected!"
  - Hugues

when you hear a joke and start show your amusement by saying *rotflol*
  - Jack07

when you make a mistake putting on your makeup and immediately want to do a Ctrl-Z. (Undo)
  - Pam

when all of your friends have @ in their names.
- Jonathan Crowe

when the TV stopped working a month ago and you didn't notice.
  - Jonathan Crowe

when all of your closest friends live out of state...or country, and you still talk to them every day.
  - Katja

when you introduce yourself in RL using your online handle.
  - Katja

when you leave a hotel early in the morning, and you walk up to the receptionist and say: "good morning, I would like to logout".
  - Tine

when you in your worst nightmare wake up all sweaty, and scream: "I WAS KICKED OFF!!!" (belive it or not; It happened to me)
  - Shumway

when someone you don't know calls an IDIOT a nerd and you stop to explain to them what a nerd REALLY is.
  - TurtleGeek

when the worst punishment 'your mom can give you is "No going on the internet until you've done your chores!!"
  - Losiniecki

when you turn off your modem and get this awful empty feeling, like you just pulled the plug on a loved one.
  - Joker

 when in the morning you go to your computer before you go to the bathroom.
  - Britney

When you enter the classroom, and you're disappointed because there are no {hugs} or *kisses*
  - F-ed

When your friends call you between 7 in the evening and 09:00 in the morning, because that's the only time you're awake.
  - F-ed
  

I RATHER LIVE AND EXPLORE AND MISS SOMETHING DEEPLY THAN NEVER BE BOLD ENOUGH TO TAKE A CHANCE!

If you've ever wanted to be a part of a great community, with even more so great late night talks on skype, check out Tribal Wars the 23rd of June. It's summer, no school and perfect time for slacking around and about on your computer. 

It's not that time consuming to play, it's the friends you gain that makes you stay up all night and chitchat about all the gibberish you can think of. There is no limit but the sky.

There won't be any settings determined by the players this time around, so I'm totally excited about what kind of world we will be dealing with this time. .no is a small market, but we have a lot of different things for a lot of different people. Hopefully this world will raise the bar a bit and make it a little more interesting.

Anyway, check it out and have a great time meeting new people.

Kathy 

This has been an unusual night for me. Well, If I would go back a year this would be a normal night for me though. Now, I must say that I'm not used to being up this late on the computer - the later the more fun. 

I've been sitting awake talking on skype with one piece of a hillarious guy. He's been humouring himself with chatroulette, which is kind of amusing since 90% of the people there are showing of their little things between their legs - one part of the body he should've been familiar with. For one weird reason, that sick place is a fun place to be. I've been on there once, never again. Too many penises hanging around and no faces.

Everytime he sees a girl he's in a extatic mode and shout out like he has never seen a girl before. And oh god if he next them to quick the world goes under. For me, who's sitting on a mic with him, it's hillarious to hear his disgust against the old hairy men and their small manly ding-dongs.

Anyway the whole point of this entry was to just share how much disgusting things there is in this world. Yeap, disgusting! Who wants to see a dead penis fly around in the air while you're online? Or a guy who enjoys his hard-on? Well, that's just not my idea of, I don't know it's just creepy and disgusting!

Well, funny story he met a few girls and we were guessing where they were from and I kind of guessed the right place. That's funny!!! I'm totally excited.



Quote:

Him:"You're a girl, you should like penises"
Me: "Well, I like them, buuut"
Him: "Oh you just like the taste of them" 

Love,
Kathy 

Here it goes. Last night I booked a trip to Crete. I can't believe I'm doing it!! I'm going to be there for a week, and I'm so excited to see where I'm going to spend that week and what kind of hotel I get. I hope I don't end up with the worst possible hotel ever in history though. Other than that I don't have any high expectations at all. Crete is beuatiful all over. I do know one thing though, and that is if I'm going to be on the west coast of the east, I'm going to be on the west coast. Exciiiiiting!!

I don't know if internet is available, but if it is, I'm going to try to blog a littlebit during the evenings.

Enjoy your week! I know I'm going to.

Peace out,
Kathy 

I woke up today and right away I realized that I was suppose to be at the gym at 11. Or I realized because my workout partner called me.. I was so sure it was on wednesday to be honest. Oh well, I was too late and nothing to do with that. I just have to go running or something later today. 

Anyway, I was a little bit happy when I weighed myself today, I've finally lost all the weight I gained last week. Good, very good!!

I've been very good with the diet lately and I've also started to take some of  the pills I got told to take everyday - guess they're working!! I'm just happy to see that the number goes down instead of up again!

Love,
Kathy.